Sunday, July 5, 2009
Where to turn?
I've been struggling with this all day.
My middle sister telephoned yesterday to tell me that our oldest sister is in ICU and that she may not be with us much longer.
I keep wanting a loving God to send a miracle and that my sister will pull through somehow. My middle sister told me that our oldest sister is on a breathing machine and has been rambling something to the effect of "they won't open the gates for me." All I can think is that she is now somewhere between life and death.
If it is my sister's time to go, I do want her to be released from any further pain and suffering.
I have put my sister's name on the temple prayer rolls for several weeks now. In February, she was diagnosed with cervical cancer that has spread to her lungs. My sister turned 62 last month.
I am profoundly sad. How am I supposed to maintain a belief in a loving God at times like this?